Episode 08

[Yul Kwon]

Congratulations, you are officially back in the game! Are you excited or did you enjoy the break?

How does the refuge tribe stack up now that it's fully formed? Are you happy with it?

How does your strategy change as the two tribes have merged and Refuge tribe is now back in the game?

Who is your biggest allies and threats on this tribe? What about over on the Hiva Oa tribe?

[Brenda Lowe]

So let me see - it's you & Ken & Mia (separately or a unit?) and possibly Kristina, but you have some fears about the people here before you having something on the burner already.

Tell me about the overall dynamic of this tribe as you see it before a vote has been cast. Pictures might help

[Jolanda]

Around 2 I'm gonna answer my PMs then give a rootin tootin confessional be ready

[Jolanda]

OMG I WORK ON A CONFESSIONAL FOR A HALF HOUR AND THEN IT FUCKIN CRASHES ON ME I'M CRYING THIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME OMG

[Jolanda]

ugh

[Jolanda]

This confessional isn't going to be as detailed as I had originally planned or hoped it would be, because I worked on one for like a half hour to 45 minutes, and then I pressed one wrong key and the whole thing went missing. You would think I learned my lesson from last time but nope. I'll still get all my thoughts out of here somehow. I'll maybe just post a little bit at a time so it DOESN'T FUCK UP AGAIN.

#JolandasStruggleMakingConfessionals #sorryisuck

I'll try to answer Yul's questions in this post:

I'm glad to be back in the game, to be honest. It was a nice week of not worrying about what I had to do to further myself in the game, but ever since Sarah picked me I knew I either had a free pass to the final 18 of the game or the F16, and I'm glad it was the latter because my life has been really busy. I think it'll calm down a little bit from here, although I can't be positve. This game just came during a terrible time for me, and it's why I'm having trouble keeping this updated as much as I would like (then again so did coming on refuge...) But I'm trucking along!

I don't really know how i feel about this tribe, honestly. It's not that I hate anybody here, it's just the opposite, actually. There is nobody that I dislike here. There is nobody like Stacey that is just batshit insane and an easy boot, and there is nobody like Lisa who lies to me and doesn't really include me in long terms plans. But, there is pretty much everyone that thinks i'm in some type of group with them, other than Chad, who I actually like more as a person over some of the people who I'm actually planning shit with (a full tribe ranking will be in my next post). So this tribe is alright, I just wish we had more fodder to play around with over here.

My strategy doesn't really change now that I'm back in the game. So far, my strategy has been to lay low, don't make any major decisions and just go with the flow until the merge. It's not the merge yet, and there is no reason why i should start making big moves. If I'm comfortable where I am in the game, there is no need for me to make moves, or hell even target anybody. Let other people take the heat for targeting people and just let me chill off in the sidelines. I don't want to be a part of that shit. Although I admit that I was a little EAGER to get things done when it came to getting a blindside in Hiva Oa when I was there, so that's not something that I would like to do again, that got me, and my friends into way too much trouble for this early in the game.

As for my thoughts on the people on this tribe, I'll come back to that later, but it's mostly positive. As for the other tribe, meh. I did do a full ranking of all of them, but really none of the write-ups were great and this was before I pressed one wrong damn button. But Lisa was at the bottom and Vytas of all people was at the top, so that's a pretty good spec of how I feel about them. Honestly, if they lose every challenge from here until the merge, I'll be a very happy camper. They can all gtfo for all I care, and I honestly wouldn't mind if the 8 that I'm with on refuge right now are the final 8, it would be perfect for me, but probably very unlikely.

Coming up: Rankdown of the cast/Brenda's questions

[Jolanda]

Now i'm going to do a cast ranking . Hopefully i get this done before i have to go, don't fuck up, and I'll TRY to mention all of the dynamics as I see them while I'm going through the ranking of each individual person. Some shock changes have been made since the last time I did this like fifteen years ago be excited!


1. Kristina

I think that i can really trust Kristina, and that's why she's up top. Right now, Mia and Ken think that she is just someone who is along for an extra vote at the moment, but honestly I see her as my number one at the moment. She keeps telling me how she has never had an alliance through this whole game, and that is STRONGLY hinting to the fact that she wants to work with me. She's also opened up to me personally, and I'm not taking that into effect when it comes to my strategy, but it shows that she really likes me and even somewhat trusts me. I've told her that she is my number one, and I will keep her pretty much over anybody at this point. Of course, this could change based off of what I can see myself doing better, but for now Kristina is really great to have in my pocket. Mia mentioned getting her out first, actually, and I shot that down really quickly. Mia is concerned that Kristina thinks of me/Mia/Ken as a threesome, and will want to take us out, so Mia would want out Kristina for that. Of course that's not going to happen, and I'm not even worrying about it at this point. As for where she fits in with the rest of the tribe, I'm really not too sure about that. She was kinda close to Ken and I back in Hiva Oa, and of course she hardly knew Mia and haven't talked to anybody on the other tribe yet, so she doesn't have as many connections here as I already have, which is great. She will vote with me, I hope, and I believe that she will.


2. Ken

Ken and Mia are basically at the same level, honestly, but Ken ranks a little higher for reasons that I will talk about when it comes to Mia's write up. Ken is actually in a little bit of trouble here, and he needs to start talking to people if he wants to be able to protect himself over us having to protect him. Sarah doesn't want to align with him, because she hasn't really talked to him. Katie said "Ken is well... Ken" which doesn't bode well with me, and Jane has flat out told me that she wants him to be the first person out of this tribe because he is weak at challenges. So, Ken isn't doing great socially here, but i like him and I think he has his head screwed on straight. I know that he will be a part of Mia and my alliance for the rest of the game, we are a strong threesome and I know we can go far together, so I don't see myself ever voting out Ken before I need to. But the thing I'm struggling with is how do I tell him that people don't really like him too much and that he needs to step it up? I don't want to be seen as protecting him, because that'll just fuck me over, and I'm here to play for me, not for my friends.


3. Mia

I love Mia just as much as I love Ken, don't get me wrong. But I feel like she can definitely overplay and overthink things sometimes, which isn't really the best for our little threesome that we have. She says things like "oh we are fucked" and things like that. I don't really appreciate it because it makes me paranoid, and at the same time I need to be the one that says something like "don't worry, we are fine" even if Mia has just let me to not believe it. However, other than that one small thing, she is a great ally, and she will be a good shield. Mia has a short temper, and she will be the one that wants to take control of our little group. Of COURSE I'm alright with her taking control of us, because that would mean if we are ever targeted, she would be the first one of the three of us to go, which would buy me more time if I need to. So for now I'm going to let her make the decision, and I'm just going to be loyal to her and see how far that takes me. Might not be the most exciting way to play, but it's effective.


4. Katie

I really like Katie, but I really don't know where she fits into to the tribe? I'm pretty sure that she wants to start up something with Mia and I, which is great, and she has opened up to me, but sitting here as I'm writing all of this out. I don't see how she fits in with everyone else. Mia even thinks that she has the idol, which is a total possibility because really anybody that was there for both clues could've gotten it. So if she does, I hope she eventually shares it with us. I don't think she has too many strong bonds on the other side of the game, so she is definitely shopping around for allies right now, and I would love to be one of them. She would be the last person I would vote out that was not a member of the original Hiva Oa tribe, I love her but apparently she is a good gamer, and that's something that I need to watch out for.


5. Sarah

Sarah didn't really start seriously talking to me until today, which is a little strange especially since we've been together here for a week now. But now she's talking about how we should stick together, and how she wants the core to be me, her, and Mia, which of course is great, but I know that she isn't too close to Ken, which might be a little bit of a problem here. She's one of the more quiet ones of the group, so I don't really have a lot to say about her. Honestly I don't see her voting against us any time soon.


6. Chad

As a person, Chad is great. I have nothing against him just because he was on a different tribe like I did back in Costa Rica. However, Chad is a really good gamer, and that is something that I have against him. I don't really want him to do well in this tribe, because I can see him rallying up people against me, Mia, and Ken, and that's not what I want at all. That, and he has really good connections to the four people who were on Nuku Hiva on the other side of the game, so I feel like there is no doubt about it that he would flip back over to them when the time comes. The good thing about now is that he doesn't have any huge connections over here, so that should make him an easy target, which is why I'm slowly planting seeds on why he should be the first person eliminated from this tribe. Not because I dislike him or anything, but because he is a huge threat and i hope that other people can see that as much as I can.


7. Jane

Jane is the worst at communicating of everyone here. I don't hate her or anything, she just hasn't made any good connections or anything. She told me she would never write down the names of Mia, me, or (either Katie/Sarah I really don't remember which one tbh) so that's good. I couldn't really say the same about her because I honestly think that she is not too long for this game. She is going to be the easiest boot that we can all agree on, and if the Chad plan doesn't get any footing, I can see Jane's name being written down a lot tonight, which sucks because I'm loving her show lol.

So yeah, that's what I gotta say about everyone. Questions HMU <3

[Brenda Lowe]

This confessional isn't going to be as detailed as I had originally planned or hoped it would be..

Sweet jebus I'd hate to see that one.

[Brenda Lowe]

That was very comprehensive and I have no questions. Good luck!

[Jolanda]

This confessional isn't going to be as detailed as I had originally planned or hoped it would be..

Sweet jebus I'd love to see that one.

Fixed.

It had like long things about the other people on the other tribe, a nice little into paragraph. Ugh it was great and I was only halfway done too RIP my time.

Also, I asked this in the thread but there is no Tribal tonight no matter what, right?

[Jolanda]

I hope all of refuge agrees not to be stupid here.

[Jolanda]

VYTAS IS A GODDESS <3 <3 <3

Final 15 cruising still here

[Jolanda]

ew @ Ashley accusing me that I have an idol stop get the fuck out bitch.

[Jolanda]

Is it bad that the only reason I wouldn't want Jane out is because of her stories lol

[Jeff Probst]

lolol Well, I guess entertainment is something everyone wants in the game?

Who would you feel the most hurt by if they ended up betraying you?

[Jolanda]

Oh sorry I just saw this now.

Honestly, Kristina is probably the person that I want to work with the closest in the game. But if she betrays me then I'll definitely understand it because it is a game, and we only know each other IN the game and not outside of the game.

However, Mia. I've been friends with her ever since she came to me after Costa Rica asking to help her host Crashcourse, and since then we've been close friends, recently we haven't been as close as we used to be because I went MIA for a little bit and didn't host the show anymore, but we still talk pretty frequently. So, I'd hate if she betrayed me, but I would understand if it was the BEST thing for her in the game. Honestly, I hope to never have to take her out or Ken to further my game, but if I gotta do it then I gotta do it (peace hand emoji)

I'm trying not to let anything like that happen. But this IS a game, and I want to win and friendships take a backseat when you want to win. Like if I'my playing my mom in monopoly, i still love her but if she lands on boardwalk i'm still making her pay!