Before I forget, I need to talk about Ashley in here.
Obviously before this game, we were at each others' throats like nobody's business. It was crazy and hot and it was seriously one of those situations where if I wanted her gone, I would have had the resources to do that. But I came into this game just planning on playing however necessary, NOT with a hit list, so after some thought, landing on a tribe with her (seriously though that pick'em STILL cracks me up) and then in a power alliance was FINE with me.
Lisa wanted Ashley in Refuge to keep her safe and calm her paranoia, which was fine with me, but after a few days of that power alliance, I just wasn't feeling it, as evidenced from my plans to overthrow the Threesome. I want to make things clear- those plans were more out of my uneasiness for me/Jolanda/Ken than as against any of them. Ashley was a little too MOR for my liking, and I don't typically align with people like that, and Ted and Lisa were pretty controlling and never really heard out what I said for the most part. So moving myself/Ken/Jolanda to Refuge and then setting up that coup on the Threesome was nothing personal for any of them, but I was just uneasy about the way they went about things and that I didn't have much control. Is anyone surprised that I needed to be a control freak there?
I'm glad they survived, though. But poor Ted. It was stupid to steer Jolanda/Ken against them because it really shaped this game against us and let Cochran get the upper hand (gag) so whatever. I made my bed and now I'll sleep in it.
But I've genuinely felt like Ashley and I can be friends again in this. I'm glad I didn't target her, and her voting to save me over Lisa and then going to rocks for me meant SO much. But now I'm like... stuck, because I'll feel SO shitty if I turn on her now. Chad is like my best hope, and Chad is NOT feeling either Ashley or Ken, so if he somehow manages to keep me safe tonight, it'll fall on one of them. I can't even pick because Ken and I have been tight since BEFORE day one, Ashley and were great friends previously and have rekindled that in this game, so her going to rocks means all the more to me.
So this is VERY shitty for me. (if I end up staying tonight lol). Basically, if I vote for either of them, it'll be out of me putting my love for this series above BOTH friendships, which will feel shitty, but it's all I have to keep pushing myself through this game.
Shit just got ~REAL~ up in here with Mia.
