Welcome, Katie!

[Mia]

Why didn't you just ask me instead of instantaneously flipping the fuck out and assuming everyone including the Illuminati was out to get you?

[Sarah]

Why didn't you just ask me instead of instantaneously flipping the fuck out and assuming everyone including the Illuminati was out to get you?

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[Chad]

I don't understand Sarah. You purposely got Katie all paranoid so she thought there was some big plot against her?

[Katie]

Why didn't you just ask me instead of instantaneously flipping the fuck out and assuming everyone including the Illuminati was out to get you?

I didn't trust you enough I guess. I didn't understand how we lost Caryn and I wasn't sure still how much of that was avoidable. By the time you got to Refuge I already felt like everything I thought I had built up in the game was a lie. I could tell you had connections that ran deep on Nuka Hiva that I didn't have and then you arrived and made me feel doubtful about the one person I actually thought I did trust in Sarah. You were so sure you were being set-up and that made me suddenly feel like I needed to be super aware because I felt like I was protecting you and Jane. But then you were suddenly in with Sarah and Mia and now I felt like I was on the outside of that and all I had left was Jane because Kristina had just been taken out from under me, which made my relationship with Jo kinda tense.

[Katie]

Why didn't you just ask me instead of instantaneously flipping the fuck out and assuming everyone including the Illuminati was out to get you?

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I didn't actually think anyone was out to get me - I knew I was safe because of my idol. I was trying to point out to the rest of you that at least one of you is being played for a fool and being strung along and allowed to think they're more important than they actually were. I needed to get to that person and make them open their eyes and see "those other two are using me!" But you guys got so caught up in calling me crazy and never actually took the time try to understand. When I would say to Mia "Sarah says it was her and Chad", Mia would say "ha ha ha, it was Sarah and me". So I'd go to Sarah and say "So, Mia thinks she was the sign-off on the Kristina vote" and Sarah would say "Of course she thinks that, but she's nowhere near as important as she thinks she is. It was Chad and I." So I'd give Mia another shot and say "ummm... Sarah is insisting that you didn't have that much to do with the Kristina vote.. Doesn't that kind of make you the third wheel?" and Mia would say "lol, of COURSE she is going to say that, we wouldn't want Chad feeling like he was the third wheel even though he was..."

And so on and so forth. But maybe, just maybe, if instead of laughing hysterically at my "self-destruction" and pointing fingers at me and calling me a lunatic, if the right one of you three had heard me out and gotten over your ego enough to think that maybe you were the one being lied to, we could have done something about it and changed the game.

As it stands, Cochran, Ralph and Carter sit in the Final 3 and you all really have only your own egos and inability to fathom that you weren't the star to blame.

I'm incredibly satisfied.

[Mia]

Katie, it was pre-merge lol. So so what if the whole thing was confusing and you felt like you were being phased out? All you had to do was make the merge and not put a huge target on your back, and jump back to your other allies.

I hope Chad explained the Caryn stuff to you the same way he did to me. Because it was pretty straight forward. Sounded like a classic example of Grade A Caryn Dribble if you ask me.

[Katie]

Katie, it was pre-merge lol. So so what if the whole thing was confusing and you felt like you were being phased out? All you had to do was make the merge and not put a huge target on your back, and jump back to your other allies.

I hope Chad explained the Caryn stuff to you the same way he did to me. Because it was pretty straight forward. Sounded like a classic example of Grade A Caryn Dribble if you ask me.

I totally believe Chad - I would also like to hear what Caryn has to say about it as well though because Chad was putting a lot of work into it not being Caryn that round and I don't see why he would need to misdirect me when I was on Refuge? I'm assuming it all went to shit pre-Tribal but I've always found it odd that everyone felt it needed to be kept from me if the decision had been made much earlier.

Also - you would be one of the few people in this game who would know I did a back-to-back coming into this game so, by the end of week one, I was tapped out. ORGing non-stop since mid-January will take its toll on your mental well-being,

[Mia]

Also - you would be one of the few people in this game who would know I did a back-to-back coming into this game so, by the end of week one, I was tapped out. ORGing non-stop since mid-January will take its toll on your mental well-being,

I was fully aware of that, and would have brought it up if I could have. I've seen you play enough to know what it does to you, and adding open-ID makes it worse.

I did open-ID for this... "other" series (lol) shortly before Stranded with Legends, and was SHOT by the first two days of Legends and never recovered. So I get it, but not being able to bring it up all made it tricky to explain to people, so it sort of defaulted into jumping on the "Katie is going crazy!" train.

I've also been playing nonstop since... mid January. So I'm going to blame some of my behavior on that, too.

[Chad]

Why didn't you just ask me instead of instantaneously flipping the fuck out and assuming everyone including the Illuminati was out to get you?

I didn't trust you enough I guess. I didn't understand how we lost Caryn and I wasn't sure still how much of that was avoidable. By the time you got to Refuge I already felt like everything I thought I had built up in the game was a lie. I could tell you had connections that ran deep on Nuka Hiva that I didn't have and then you arrived and made me feel doubtful about the one person I actually thought I did trust in Sarah. You were so sure you were being set-up and that made me suddenly feel like I needed to be super aware because I felt like I was protecting you and Jane. But then you were suddenly in with Sarah and Mia and now I felt like I was on the outside of that and all I had left was Jane because Kristina had just been taken out from under me, which made my relationship with Jo kinda tense.

I think you are highly exaggerating my "paranoia" when I got to Refuge. As soon as I got there you came at me and dumped on me that "we" were with Sarah and Jane and those were our numbers and we had to stick with that to take out Mia and co and you would use your idol if you had to to make sure we were all safe.

I didn't want to work with Sarah and Jane and I didn't want to take out Mia and co. either. I wanted them to be in the merge because I knew they would be going head to head with Cochran and it would provide a nice distraction. Besides the fact that I didn't think Mia would come after me. And Jo and I were getting close.

But I was trying to make that thing that you told me I had to be in work, because I was with you above any of the others. I didn't trust Sarah and well... Jane is Jane. So I told you that I didn't really trust Sarah, because I didn't and I didn't want to work with her. If you did, you didn't have to listen to me. I didn't tie you up and force you to be skeptical of Sarah. You are the one who chose to interpret a very benign situation as some master plot against you. No one did that to you.

I think you were probably expecting me to screw you or something and therefore you created a fictitious scenario in your head where it was happening when it wasn't.

And again... I'm sure Jeff will turn PMs back on when the game is over. Go find the message where you told me that you wanted to dump Jane and Sarah and work with Jo and Kristina instead. Post it here. And if you can find it and post it here, I will go spam the entire ORGY forum with porn and get banned and never play again. I am that confident that it doesn't exist because I triple checked just to make sure I didn't flake out and ignore an important thing you told me. All you ever told me is how much we needed to stick with Sarah and Jane.

[Mia]

I think you are highly exaggerating my "paranoia" when I got to Refuge. As soon as I got there you came at me and dumped on me that "we" were with Sarah and Jane and those were our numbers and we had to stick with that to take out Mia and co and you would use your idol if you had to to make sure we were all safe.

Oh she was after me from the start? lol

[Chad]

Katie, it was pre-merge lol. So so what if the whole thing was confusing and you felt like you were being phased out? All you had to do was make the merge and not put a huge target on your back, and jump back to your other allies.

I hope Chad explained the Caryn stuff to you the same way he did to me. Because it was pretty straight forward. Sounded like a classic example of Grade A Caryn Dribble if you ask me.

I totally believe Chad - I would also like to hear what Caryn has to say about it as well though because Chad was putting a lot of work into it not being Caryn that round and I don't see why he would need to misdirect me when I was on Refuge? I'm assuming it all went to shit pre-Tribal but I've always found it odd that everyone felt it needed to be kept from me if the decision had been made much earlier.

Also - you would be one of the few people in this game who would know I did a back-to-back coming into this game so, by the end of week one, I was tapped out. ORGing non-stop since mid-January will take its toll on your mental well-being,

I wasn't misdirecting you. I was busting my ass to save her. But she made that impossible. I didn't want to work with Debb and Carter, I wanted the 5 of us to stick together. And by the time we got to tribal, after all the shit she pulled, I didn't really want her there either. I was going to not vote or vote for myself just so I didn't have to write Caryn's name down, but she had pissed me off so much that I just voted for her.

[Katie]

I think you are highly exaggerating my "paranoia" when I got to Refuge. As soon as I got there you came at me and dumped on me that "we" were with Sarah and Jane and those were our numbers and we had to stick with that to take out Mia and co and you would use your idol if you had to to make sure we were all safe.

Oh she was after me from the start? lol

No, I was wanting to protect Jane more than I was "after you". The whole reason I told Chad about the idol was so that he would feel a bit more secure but now that he is "in" with you he's playing it all off like he wasn't really bothered.

Whatever, what's done is done. I don't think any of you are being 100% honest about where I stood in that group at Refuge but you'll all swear up and down differently and you all have one another to back each other up and will keep making snarky comments about things making sense "in my head" to discredit me but I'm done talking it over with you guys. Imma focus on what I need to know from the Final 3 to make my jury vote and then it's "peace out".

You guys may say a lot of what I did or didn't do was nonsensical or you don't understand why I said the things I said or acted the way I did but I understand it and I feel it was justified. I don't need any of you to validate my game and I'm not seeking approval or acceptance from any of you for the way I chose to play. I feel like I made some new connections with people I'd never met before and I will come out of this experience the better for those. I also re-established some older friendships that I'd forgotten were incredibly important to me. If a small handful of you want to make such a big deal about the fact that I behaved in a way that was unexpected to you, fine, but that's not who I am. I refused to allow my past Stranded experience to define who I am and I will refuse to allow this one to just the same.

And that's all I have to say.

[Sarah]

Why didn't you just ask me instead of instantaneously flipping the fuck out and assuming everyone including the Illuminati was out to get you?

*insert plug for my game*

No, this is me literally talking about my game, Isolated.

[Mia]

I think you are highly exaggerating my "paranoia" when I got to Refuge. As soon as I got there you came at me and dumped on me that "we" were with Sarah and Jane and those were our numbers and we had to stick with that to take out Mia and co and you would use your idol if you had to to make sure we were all safe.

Oh she was after me from the start? lol

No, I was wanting to protect Jane more than I was "after you". The whole reason I told Chad about the idol was so that he would feel a bit more secure but now that he is "in" with you he's playing it all off like he wasn't really bothered.

Whatever, what's done is done. I don't think any of you are being 100% honest about where I stood in that group at Refuge but you'll all swear up and down differently and you all have one another to back each other up and will keep making snarky comments about things making sense "in my head" to discredit me but I'm done talking it over with you guys. Imma focus on what I need to know from the Final 3 to make my jury vote and then it's "peace out".

You guys may say a lot of what I did or didn't do was nonsensical or you don't understand why I said the things I said or acted the way I did but I understand it and I feel it was justified. I don't need any of you to validate my game and I'm not seeking approval or acceptance from any of you for the way I chose to play. I feel like I made some new connections with people I'd never met before and I will come out of this experience the better for those. I also re-established some older friendships that I'd forgotten were incredibly important to me. If a small handful of you want to make such a big deal about the fact that I behaved in a way that was unexpected to you, fine, but that's not who I am. I refused to allow my past Stranded experience to define who I am and I will refuse to allow this one to just the same.

And that's all I have to say.

But I was trying to keep Jane safe too?

I think you're confusing ambiguity with you being in danger. Like Nobody really knows where you stand because you were just not really a target at all until the breakdown. After that a convincing case could have been made for you going, except Chad told me you had the idol so everyone just kept it on Jane.

[Katie]

Why didn't you just ask me instead of instantaneously flipping the fuck out and assuming everyone including the Illuminati was out to get you?

*insert plug for my game*

No, this is me literally talking about my game, Isolated.