by Jolanda » Thu Mar 05, 2015 4:46:55 am
That tribal was gross, so I'm going to talk through my side of things for a little bit then answer questions. (ps no host has posted in here in QUITE some time besides the opening threads, I'm beginning to think I'm the only one who actually reads my confessionals anymore :( )
So going into the vote, I was almost positive that it was going to go against Lisa. I know that Mia and Ken had some dumb plan about getting rid of someone like Ralph, but I was never into it, and I told people (Chad) that i wasn't into the idea when it was presented to me.
After I told this information to Chad, he freaked out because he didn't know about it and Ken and Mia were apparently lying to him about it and they were saying Lisa all the way. Little does Chad know that i knew about all of this, and I was just sent to basically test the waters with him and see his reaction to see if we should go through the plan or not. Honestly, I don't think I ever would have gone with the plan, and I STILL would have voted Lisa if it came down to it, but that doesn't matter.
Chad freaked out, and told Cochran and Ralph about it, so they freaked out too. During the challenge, Cochran saw Lisa in the idol forum, and did what Cochran does best: freak out. So he told everyone and appanretly a vote against Mia was formed so that those three would be safe in the event of ANOTHER idol play by Lisa.
When the votes came in, me, Ken, Mia, Ashley, and Sarah all voted for Lisa, while Chad, Ralph, Cochran, Debb, and Carter (both of who were told at the last minute) voted for Mia, with Lisa voting for Ralph. So, from there Debb switched her vote and THANKFULLY Mia was saved and Lisa was sent home, just like the original plan had stated would happen.
So now I don't know what to do honestly. I'm just trying to get in the middle, and see what everybody is thinking. I'm really close to both Mia and Ken, and I don't think people realize that I'm as close to them as i am because i've been downplaying our relationship ever since we got to refuge together. At the same time, however, I'm not as loyal to them (as much as I do love them) as they think, so I'm willing to do anything that will save me here at this point. Luckily, it looks like the target will be off of me for a little bit unless anything crazy happens, which is perfect and exactly what I want.
My plan now is to rebuild my relationship with Cochran and Chad (and Ralph too) so that they will at least inform me of what's going on. My only worry is that sides have formed, which are Me/Mia/Ken/Ashley/Sarah vs. Ralph/Cochran/Chad/Debb/Carter So I'm just trying to get close to the other side, so that they wouldn't want to vote me out, or even if I could sway one of them to vote with me. It's going to be hard, but maybe it can happen. I just don't want to be in the final six with the other five, because I feel like there is no other way than me getting screwed over, so I gotta play my cards right.
These groups AREN'T going to last forever, and I know that. But for THIS round, I think they might have some impact on the vote, and I just hope i'm not on the wrong side of things.
I'll answer the questions tomorrow, maybe.
