OK. So. There's something I need to talk about.
I think I'm fucking myself by being myself here and I'm screwing up my chances of winning if I do make it to the end. I've been here before and I think I'm falling into my own traps.
The problem is, my game is too UTR that it is not obvious that I am pulling all the puppet strings to the people in the game and the ones who end up on the jury.
The Lisa boot was pretty much all me. The Ashley boot tonight was all me. But no one realizes that because I'm so fucking good at manipulating people and making them believe their ideas are actually their own and weren't planted there by me. But then that carries on onto the jury where they have no respect for my game because the perception the entire time was that I was just sort of herpa derping my way through the game.
The one saving grace I have in this game is that it's open ID and they fucking know me so they know that's probably not the case. But at the same time, they know me and I still think they are buying it now during the game.
OK. Let's talk about the Lisa boot the other night. This was when I was on a fucking mission to merge Jolanda and Ken with Cochran and Ralph. But Cochran was targeting Ken hardcore. I obviously didn't want Ken to leave because my plan was to put that five together and ride the middle until I had to choose a side. Unfortunately Mia made me choose earlier than I wanted to, but that's besides the point. So Cochran has an impermeable hard on for Ken leaving. And I spent all fucking day on that shit. I was talking to Jo and telling her the whole deal. I know Cochran's buttons and which ones trigger which reactions. I told her exactly what to say to him. Meanwhile on the other side he has me in his ear reminding him how Carter and Debb betrayed him once already, telling him how much I trusted Jo, convincing him this was the best long term solution for us, putting it into his head how dangerous Lisa and Ashley were for us and how they were too close with Carter and Debb. And wala. All of a sudden, Cochran goes to Debb and tells her that Lisa is coming after her. And I totally think that he made that shit up.
But he did that to flip the target from Ken to Lisa, because of ME. But I'm so good at this crap that even the involved parties don't realize that was me. I don't mean to sound cocky like this, but I just really have an easy time manipulating people. On the surface it looks like Jo snowed in Cochran, because no one realizes I was feeding her all the information to push Cochran's buttons. And it looks like Cochran commandeered the Lisa boot, but he did so because of ME.
Same thing happened with the Ashley boot tonight. I wanted Ashley GONE for a plethora of reasons. I may get into all of those at some point but a bunch of options were cut off for a bunch of people tonight and Ashley was never going to be with me. So anyway, there were a bunch of people that sort of still half trusted Ashley and I made sure to squash all that over the past two days. I started this whole thing off by telling Cochran what Ashley was doing last night with me and I told him she was trying to threaten me that I needed to "flip" to vote out Ralph to wash the Ralph/Cochran stank off of me. Now she didn't exactly do that, but she's not exactly subtle and for some reason the dumb bitch thought she could manipulate me into thinking that voting off Ralph was a good idea for me.
Hold on a second. I need to get something out here.
Bitch, please.
Ahem. So anyway, I told Cochran about this last night. I stated it to him more bluntly than Ashley presented it to me and of course he flips the fuck out and wants her gone immediately. Then today, because Mia is in desperation mode and I am her new BFF, she's telling me everything. She tells me that Ashley told them Debb and Carter wanted to use Sarah to make a move on Ralph and Cochran. I'm actually pretty positive this is true. I'm also pretty positive that if I tell Debb about this she will realize that she can't trust Ashley and want her the fuck out of here because I'm sure they have told her other stuff they don't want to get out. So now I have Debb and Cochran going around driving the Ashley-needs-to-GTFO bus and I sit back and watch it happen. Again, with no one really knowing that the whole chain of events was kicked off by me.
I don't know what I can do though. I fall into this trap because it's just so easy to do. People trust me. This is open ID and I feel like people STILL trust me. Not that I'm playing a shady game or anything, because I'm not. But I feel like they are underestimating me when they KNOW they shouldn't.
What kind of gets me, though, is that Cochran is being painted as the clear leader, when to a certain extent I feel like he's the one dangling from my puppet strings. And I'm keeping him in check so he doesn't go fucking blow up his game with ridiculous actions. For example, the other night when he found the idol, he immediately wanted to go flaunt it in everyone's face and I was like - WTF NO STOP WHAT ARE YOU DOING THE POWER OF THE IDOL IS ITS MYSTERY DON'T FUCKING TELL EVERYONE YOU HAVE IT YOU IDIOT. And then he's like, so yea, you're right, sorry. I do this all the time with him and I feel like I save him from himself so much. But no one knows this. And they perceive him as the leader and Ralph as his loyal follower. And I guess they just think I'm there. But that also probably means I'm doing a pretty good job of snowing these people into thinking I actually am a free agent right now.
If I do end up in the F3 with Ralph and Cochran, which is the plan, I would be pretty bummed if I lost to him. On a positive note, however, I have much more of a likability factor and a lot of people can't fucking stand him. But at the same time they may be disgusted with me choosing him over them also.
That is a long way away and there is a lot to go through before I have to worry about that. But I just wanted to comment on this because I see myself falling into the same patterns I always do. The Scooby Doo reveal doesn't always work.
The question is, who will beat everyone else to the punch?
by Jeff Probst » Mon Mar 09, 2015 2:47:56 am 
What????
That is assuming she leaves and no one did anything shady.